May 2010
My thirst for new clothes is satisfied, I just want to swim in a sea of linen shirts and shorts and scarves for the rest of eternity.
April 2010
“I know there’s no way I can convince you this is not one of their tricks,...”
Your absence makes me feel weak
The finality of it is painful, Peter. The fact that you aren’t coming back is painful. I know I’ve said all this before, but tonight I couldn’t stop thinking about the finality of your loss and how 15 years from now when I’m older and thinking back on high school, and wondering when I’ll see old friends again, the fact that you’ll still be gone is too much for...
Starting your day with cocoa pebbles is starting it right.
OH MY GOD. I hate this fucking college process more than anything I started out with so many good plans, and they all dissolved miserably. I didn’t think it would end up like this at all, scrambling at the eleventh hour. It’s between Marist, UB, and Manhattan right now, I still have to find out from Marist and Manhattan though. I just feel like my plans for where I’m going to...
“The heat that’s in the sun will keep us when there’s none.”
SOMEHOW I’VE LET THE COLOR BLUE TAKE OVER MY ROOM. I DON’T EVEN LIKE THAT COLOR. God, I’m bored.
Lay down arms, Lest the lives of kings be shortened by the hunt, The sleepless night And the sweet soul’s yearning. The sound of the chalice thinning, As cowards turn to flight, The rest of days spent sinning, A clergyman’s delight.
Dawn’s bright vanity advances Set back in heaven’s light Awaiting raw romances As only lovers might.
Parents just asked to see my sketchbook. I feel incredibly vulnerable right now because I’m not an artist by any means and I think they were expecting my drawings to be flawless and beautifully executed. They’ve always been very loving and supporting of course, and I’m lucky to have them, they’ve always had a realistic take on things in my life, but this choice of mine,...
This template is so fucking obnoxious and the green gives me a headache. I tried at least 11 other backgrounds and for some reason I kept missing this one :/ So far this break sucks.
Make it work.
Buttons and chains work on so many things. Alexander McQueen I miss you :( You were, hands down, my favorite designer. I’m rediscovering Empire State of Mind and it makes me want NYC all the more. Unemployment? No. FUNEMPLOYMENT.
I guess God just needed you.
Miss you, bud.
A shattered statue on the ground
Of mother, deep in prayer.
The morning rises red again,
upon her marble hair.
Her eyes, half-lidded, lay set and drawn
Withholding fate’s decay,
Her form rests in the rosen dawn
A withering bouquet.
The morning rises red again
For all who live to see,
The petals fall; forgotten psalms
Beneath the rosewood tree.
The runner’s shoes, worn...
“I hope that whoever you are you escape this place. I hope the world turns and...”
– V.
The bells are ringing in prague.
Still leaving light in cold calloused hands,
Seeking to find her way, stumbling.
Loving freely and not knowing
That riot will always find her there.
Though I sang in my chains like the sea.
In the sun that is young once only, Time let me play and be Golden in the mercy of his means. And the sabbath rang slowly In the pebbles of the holy streams. Flying with the ricks, and the horses Flashing into the dark. Nothing I cared, in the lamb white days, that time would take me Up to the swallow thronged loft by the shadow of my hand, In the moon that is always rising, Oh as I was young...
February 19th, 2010
Making changes to my life is exhausting. I’ve been letting myself be defined by expectations and “plans” for too long now. Since I returned from my trip to Amsterdam, I’ve been working on finding pathways to my own happiness, selfish? Perhaps. Even with that new perspective, I still fell back into day to day routines of parents’ orders and being dishonest with myself...
Rotting away in Rochester.
I’m always the one stuck at home on spring break; getting paler by the second. I’m dreadfully bored, listening to 80’s music and sketching. I WILL create a new wave of green fashion. Internship starting soon? This week? Oui.
